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CB
ON BECOMING A WINDOW
Recycling unused blobs of yellow and red
I make random stabs of paint on the blank target
This huge expanse of canvas is calling for broad brushes
Laid spread-eagled on the floor
I attack it from all angles
The leftovers have been consumed
But there’s an energy risen in me now
I squeeze blue, violet
Fresh supplies of red and yellow
Merciful white
Trusting, trusting
Fighting the feeling that this is all stupid
Allowing what is happening to happen
The human mind seems programmed to find pattern amongst chaos
Meaning amid insignificance
Looking at the blotches, smears and puddles of colour
I see a frame
Four sides - four corners -
Indistinct, but determined to be seen
Without doubt, there’s a window
Now, it’s tricky:
If a window has been born
But has yet to develop into a full-grown, adult fenestration
How to nurture that unique manifestation of creation
Without killing its wild, wide-eyed spirit?
Part of me wants to tame this window
To smooth its rough edges, fill holes in the woodwork
A new coat, to neaten and protect
I want to know if we’re looking out, or looking in
And what’s there beyond the glass
I tread the tightrope between abandon and control
My window gains crossbars, a sill, a right-way-up
But its essential nature remains untamed
With its gaps and clashes
Blurred edges, muddle and mess
It’s energetic and alive
Mysterious yet magnificent
I like the window best this way.
Chris Beale
14th April 2011
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