rhythm number three (letting go)

 

letting go of books and dogma

all that i was taught

letting go my christian faith

harder than i thought

 

letting go of lauren and bevs

partners close and true

letting go of steph and rosie

hearts i failed to woo

 

letting go the tension in my body

itches aches and pain

letting go my memory

sorry what was your name again?

 

letting go of hurt i caused

actions words unwise

no longer needing to make things right

to repent and apologise

 

letting go of alex

dead at twenty-nine

letting go of four cool cats

suki my favourite all-time

 

letting go my background

british stiff-upper-lip

letting go of beales hotels

the company chairmanship

 

letting go the miscarriage

my unborn son or daughter

letting go of wedding bells

feeling like i ought to

 

letting go of self-improvement

and trying to sort my stuff

had enough of feeling wrong

and having had enough

 

letting go the explorer

ticking places off a list

thailand spain grand canyon

and all the spots i missed

 

letting go of mum and dad

i’ll have to before too long

requiem aeternam dona eis domine

praise be their faith so strong

 

letting go of success and wealth

handshakes with the great

dropping the need to get there

before it’s all too late

 

letting go of eileen

deep under my skin

eileen my tender love

how can i even begin?

 

letting go of feeling shame

for sensual desire

deadly sins transgressions

played out by cupid’s lyre

 

letting go the hooded knight

lashing at me with a blade

cast out this brutal foe

that can never be assuaged

 

letting go of happy endings

all tied up and neat

letting go of fears of dying

 

 

Chris Beale

July 2012